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Kindess leads to repentance December 7, 2009

Filed under: SMIC — chinabean @ 9:49 am

Romans 2:1-10

You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things. 2Now we know that G*d’s judgment against those who do such things is based on truth. 3So when you, a mere man, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape G*d’s judgment? 4Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, tolerance and patience, not realizing that G*d’s kindness leads you toward repentance?

But because of your stubbornness and your unrepentant heart, you are storing up wrath against yourself for the day of G*d’s wrath, when his righteous judgment will be revealed. 6G*d “will give to each person according to what he has done.”[a] 7To those who by persistence in doing good seek glory, honor and immortality, he will give eternal life. 8But for those who are self-seeking and who reject the truth and follow evil, there will be wrath and anger. 9There will be trouble and distress for every human being who does evil: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile; 10but glory, honor and peace for everyone who does good: first for the Jew, then for the Gentile. 11For G*d does not show favoritism.


Lessons from the Classroom:

Many have told me that there is a “gift” I have that Abba gave me in which i can dig deep and know people’s hearts more deeply than most. I have heard this before and though I am not sure what this gift is or called, I am humbled and thankful that He has used it for me to really get to know people and to know how i can intercede on their behalf.

My accountability group for P.Co has been having “assignments” for each week we met. my assignment last week was that I need to and want to rap for my students on a daily basis. The past two weeks, as i have been sick, i have woken up at 5AM before my alarm because i cannot breathe. so instead of being miserable and trying to fall back asleep, I have been using the time to do my assignment.


Yesterday at the end of the day, the Ld taught me this valuable lesson about my gifts as well as my witness as a teacher to my kids.

I have a student named Cara, that is strong, independent, athletic, smart, helpful, very kind. She won the integrity award this past month for the 2nd grade. About a month ago, she was involved in some girl drama, and was a witness to what one girl had done. She started crying when i asked her what how the “bully girl” hurt her. I realized that it seemed like she never really cries. And surely, enough when i had Parent Teacher Conferences her mom said that she doesn’t cry. barely at ALL at home as well.

Which brings us to today, after library class while lining up, one girl Jessica screams, “Ow, Cara pinched me.” I teacher glare at cara and ask her if she did. She nodds yes.  I tell her i will talk to her when we get back to the classroom. being the wonderful teacher that i am, i forget for about half the period that i have to talk to her… but i end up remembering. i call cara over and asked her what happened. I put my arm around her so shes close enough where no one else can hear us. She tells me, “jessica asked if she could go in front of my in line, and i let her. but then i didnt want her to so i pinched her.” I said, “was it an accident?” she said, “no.”

All of a sudden she begins to whimper a little and tries to hold in her tears. I ask her, “whats wrong?” She stands still and starts crying… I prod and begin my investigative questions. “why are you crying?” “Did jessica do something to you too?” (thinking that she felt sad because it was unfair that it may have been others fault too). She shakes her head. She is bawling by this time and trying to pull away from me, but i have her in my arm. I ask her, “then why are you crying? You are not in trouble. I just want to know why you’re feeling sad.”

She then finally says, “Miss Chan, I’m sad… because I changed my mind and i didn’t know what else to do. I hurt Jessica, but I didn’t want to.  Sometimes I do what I don’t want to do.”  I held her closer to me and she began to cry into my shoulder. I told her, “Since you did something wrong, it’s good to cry and be sorry.” She looked at me with the cutest puppy dog eyes and started to calm down. I told her she should go apologize to Jessica again and maybe tell her that you will try not to do it next time. She nodded politely and went to Jessica. When she finished apologizing, Cara came back over to me, as all the other students have settled down and started SSR (silent sustained reading), she stood really close to me and began to cry again.

I held her close and she just sobbed in my arms. and when she was done… the breathing calmed down. I just hugged her for another moment and said “It’s okay, Cara. Jes*s loves you.” She smiled, packed up her bags and we lined up to go home for the day.

she doesn’t know Jes*s right now… but she one day she will.


So the lesson I learned is that, His kindness leads us to repentance. and it’s pretty incredible because as i walked back from the gate to my classroom after all the parents picked up their kids, i was rapping and realized that the kindess that i exhibit (that is FROM the Ld) was displayed in a way that Cara felt FREE to repent. I think too often, our Father is like this. His KINDNESS TRULY does draw us to repentance and freedom. I forget how hard it is for us to know TRUE forgiveness.. unless we repent. and truly in my life.. im learning that the more i KNOW Abba, the MORE i KNOW HIS KINDNESS.. which leads me to repentance and draws me into the FREEDOM that comes from HIS LOVE.

^__^ ptl.


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